I was rocking this Weight Watcher thing on my own until I went out last night....I was so happy, I'd busted my weight from last week and then I had a margarita and the bottomless chips/salsa and a lot of good conversation (which meant the bottomless chips never stopped coming and I kept dunking!). On top of that, we went out of town today on a family road trip to see Carl's Great Grandma and we ate at Pizza Inn. I love Pizza. It is my weakness. It was also buffet, nonetheless. SO, I tried to behave. I started with a salad and non fat ranch dressing, a little cheese, some sunflower seeds (love them). Then I only had two pieces of pizza and a dessert slice. But I munched off the kids' plates (which is a no - no!). Then when we got home, I had no idea where I stood on my points and no idea how to recover. I also wanted to eat and keep eating all day.
We'll see what damage has been done tomorrow. It would be so easy to just chuck the whole thing. For me, getting to a point where I'm fully committed takes me about 15 pounds. Losing 3, 5, or 7 pounds (and I'm not belitting that), for me is inconsequential to what I need to lose. The first 10 pounds on a tall person, like me, are gravy and nobody really notices when you're where I am. It takes a while more for people to really see a difference and that motivates me, at least, to keep going. I don't want to sound like I'm doing this for someone else's approval, but it's always nice to hear that someone can tell things are changing.
Like I said, I'll calculate the damage tomorrow, pull up my boot straps and dive right back in. The thing that is so hard, though, is the little devil on my shoulder just prodding me to get into the freezer and have some ice cream, or Girl Scout cookies. The little angel on the other side, just sits there, waiting for me to cave in. When I do, it "tsk, tsks" at me. I just want to tell that darn goody two shoes angel that he ain't so skinny himself. Maybe he should look in the mirror and get off my case!
I am really not delusional - just sugar deprived and a little cranky from lack of food!
2 comments:
I know it's hard. Just keep up the good work, in the end it will be worth it and all the stuggles will be just a memory. Ok a bad memory but you will be past it! Good Luck today, I'm sending light thoughts :)
Be strong! I know you can do it!! One of the biggest things is being able to forgive yourself for falling off the wagon. Just because you slipped up one night or even a whole weekend, doesn't mean you could just throw up your arms and give the whole thing up!
BTW a nice blog for some good WW recipes is here: http://weight-watchers-points-recipes.blogspot.com/ and another good site is http://www.hungry-girl.com/
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